There is a tension between God and I. Between the infinite and the finite. Between the perfect and the unperfected. What can I know of God? What can I apprehend of the divine? Who is this God, and what are these “facts” about God that can be conceived of? In a world full of “answers,” I must confess that anything that I could conceive or say of God, I conceive and say as a mere approximation to God.
Even then, how might I ‘ground’ these approximations? One says, “faith” and another says, “reason” and still another says, “faith and reason.” And yet another says, “scripture, faith, reason, experience, tradition, etc…” I find these “answers” disconcerting. They speak of these things, but by approaching what they speak of, have I really “found God”? Have I really begun to resolve the tension between God and I? Have I moved on from approximations of God? Even by the Spirit living in me, telling me that I am His, have I resolved this tension?
No. I must confess that I am an agnostic. But, I am an agnostic because I can’t know, and I can’t show you what God is ‘really’ like. When I speak of God, or I speak of Jesus, this is not who God IS, but yet it is something like who God is. When I have a relationship with God, this is not who God IS, yet it is something like who God is.
There is a tension between God and I. A tension that I’m OK with, and I think He’s OK with it too.